“I think I’m finding myself again” by Rebecca Herrera
Lately, I’d rather get myself lost in
the thin petals of my garden roses
The ones growing on my windowsill, the only place
in this whole damn apartment that gets any sunlight…
Or!
Maybe I could find a better way to mix pink lemonade
Pour it out from my watering can- like June rain
and hope the extra sugar has me feeling sweeter
than you and your mouth ever did
Or!
I could start writing again, finally, now that
my mind isn’t made of caramel flan
and crushed strawberries
I don’t think I love you anymore
My garden roses, they need my hands again,
I need to sew them some lace to protect their stems,
and make sure their drinking water has enough starlight,
and that their soil has just the right amount of
gold leaf in-between the roots,
and you don’t seem to miss me, do you?
I once let my roses die
just to kiss you longer
Rebecca Herrera is a Salvadoran-American, strawberry-haired girl born and raised in New York. She completed her undergraduate degree in Art History and Museum Professions from the Fashion Institute of Technology. You can find her at home playing Animal Crossing or wandering around any NYC art museum.
Instagram: @strawberry.img