"Renaissance Sim- Life Aspiration" by Olivia Torres
I make myself a million bodies
big boobs, big dreams, digging deep-
I know. make me into a million
lifetimes, choke myself into abalone
waifs that sparkle and pout with natural
grins whenever I feel like it.
I level up in ways I can’t quantify
here. give meaning to the moments
where I look at myself in the mirror
and don’t cringe away. when the glowing
bar appears above my skull I know I’m
charming. a chess board materializes
and suddenly I’m Copernicus, shredding
through logic and the church and everything
that actually confounds me in real life
but not in there. listen. it’s a better life
a safer sky, a magic matrix that boasts
of consent. consent to move, consent
to fuck, a merry marriage of will and goals.
forget the treatment plans, the WRAPs
the plastic knives that do not break at mealtimes.
leave me and Copernicus alone, and we with our
big boobs and dreams will rediscover the sun-
the lightbulb of pixels that illuminate the screen.
Olivia Torres is a queer, biracial fangirl who hails from a small town in western Massachusetts where the potholes in the roads are so large they have now developed sentience. She received her Bachelor's in English from Westfield State University, and her work has appeared in journals such as the Merrimack Review, Secondchance Lit, the Dandelion Review, Backslash Lit, and Alyss Literary Journal.